CONTRADICTORY


It is as though my life is spiralling out of control into darkness, as I fall far from my dreams and plans. "Just because your life doesn't go as planned, doesn't mean it is no longer worth living."

As graduation is just around the corner, I can't help but fear about what I'll be doing in the (not so far from now) future. I cannot imagine what I'll be doing in 3 to 4 months time, or maybe I choose to not think about it. But truth is, I cannot keep running away from reality, and soon, I'll have to face up to reality whether or not I want to. 

I came across an article about finding out what you truly want to do in life or what's worth living for. "To find out what is worth living for, you must know what is worth dying for." But I don't know, I don't know what I'll be willing to die for, so therefore, I don't know what I'll be willing to live for. I'm trying to avoid sounding like a depressed teenager, but apparently failing so badly at it.

What if I came to this world, only to exist and not live. "To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all." and I don't want to be like most people.

How did typing about my life spiralling out of control led to graduation woes and then to what's worth living for.

When she was just a girl, she expected the world. But it flew away from her reach so she ran away in her sleep.